Pls, i need help for my thesis

[halfaorson]

Guys. I remember that in Bogdanovich's interview with Orson, at one point, Welles talks about his feelings about his talent.
He says something like " I feel like i didnt do enough in my life, with the talent that God gave me.." . Please, since i got to use this line in my thesis, i wish you could help me to find it. I would really appreciate that, thanks!

[catbuglah]

There's a passage on page 3 where he says he spent too much time raisng money for films and would have filled his time better had he been more polygamous (Meaning I think doing things other than rasing money). Somewhat similar to what you're looking for...

[R Kadin]

I tried an extensive seach in "This is Orson Welles" via the Amazon.com site using every word I could imagine that might have been used in expressing the kind of regretful sentiment your paraphrase conveys. I came up with absolutely zilch.

Therefore, I think catbuglah's reference is as close as you're going to get. Hope your thesis can withstand the adjustment...

[halfaorson]

i really thank you guys. Now i got doubts that maybe was not in that book..i remember clearly a line saying that he thought he didn't give enough to the world comparing the talent that he got, that he was feeling guilty...i still hope to find it, i wish not to delete it from my thesis...if anybody got any idea of which is the book, i'd appreciate your help. Thanks!!

[Orson&Jazz]

Maybe perhaps Mark W. Estrin's Orson Welles: Interviews?? If it is a direct quote, it could come from a variety of interviews he had given, and Mark W. Estrin's book covers many indepth interviews with Orson.

It is just a suggestion.

[Lucy]

That's a very excellent book too. Here's a quote from it that might be what halforson was thinking of: "I think I made essentially a mistake in staying in the movies but it's a mistake I can't regret because it's like saying I shouldn't have stayed married to that woman but I did because I love her. I would have been more successful if I hadn't been married to her, you know. I would have been more successful if I'd left movies immediately, stayed in the theatre, gone into politics, written, anything. I've wasted a greater part of my life looking for money and trying to get along, trying to make my work from this terribly expensive paintbox which is a movie. And I've spent too much energy on things that have nothing to do with making a movie. It's about two percent moviemaking and ninety-eight percent hustling. That's no way to spend a life."

[Store Hadji]

That's from BBC Arena. I've watched that interview 20 times and I could still watch it again. Welles certainly was charismatic and captivating (unless you were the head of a film studio, or at least one which had any money to invest.)

[NoFake]

How about this? In Kristian Petri's "Brunnen," Oja Kodar is quoted as saying that Welles didn't want to be cremated: “I took so much from this earth," he told her, "I want to give something back.”

[NoFake]

Ouch! I seem to have cast a pall over the discussion. Apologies to all for darkening the spirit of the season -- the quote just seemed to be a possible (if lugubrious and heartbreaking) answer to the question, after all other possibilities were exhausted...

[NoFake]

Although, regarded another way, it's also moving, and even inspiring: for a man like Welles, who gave so much to this earth -- and could easily and justifiably have been embittered by his misfortunes -- to come away from it at the end, and still feel that he had taken so much, that he wanted to give back the ultimate -- the one thing that he had left to give... WOW.

[catbuglah]

That's a wonderful little bit that gives a better insight into the man than many a long dissertation - To die: to sleep;
No more; and by a sleep to say we end
The heart-ache and the thousand natural shocks
That flesh is heir to, 'tis a consummation
Devoutly to be wish'd. To die, to sleep;
To sleep: perchance to dream: ay, there's the rub;
For in that sleep of death what dreams may come
When we have shuffled off this mortal coil,
Must give us pause: there's the respect
That makes calamity of so long life;
For who would bear the whips and scorns of time,
The oppressor's wrong, the proud man's contumely,
The pangs of despised love, the law's delay,
The insolence of office and the spurns
That patient merit of the unworthy takes,
When he himself might his quietus make
With a bare bodkin? who would fardels bear,
To grunt and sweat under a weary life,
But that the dread of something after death,
The undiscover'd country from whose bourn
No traveller returns, puzzles the will
And makes us rather bear those ills we have
Than fly to others that we know not of?
Thus conscience does make cowards of us all;
And thus the native hue of resolution
Is sicklied o'er with the pale cast of thought,
And enterprises of great pitch and moment
With this regard their currents turn awry,
And lose the name of action.--